In my eagerness to escape the past
I forgot to burn the bridges
Forgot to bury the dead
Forgot to shut the doors, lock and throw away the keys
In my hurried state, l simply forgot
Or was l just hoping, wishing you to come back?
Once l loved a man, gave him all in me
Forgot to keep a little me in me so when he left for another
Getting back on my feet was a battle
If it wasn’t embarrassing it would be funny
How we clutch at straws even when we know there is no hope
In these disastrous relationships that suck the life out of us
I’m not battling anymore so l embark on a journey of self discovery
This quest to find myself and love me does not involve any degradation from you
My purgatorial rites to exonerate your existence from mine
Do not involve me questioning my value
Constantly asking myself what l lack
What’s wrong with me or what it is l need to do to please you
Yet you do nothing for me but crush my existence
I will stand
I will fight
I refuse to sit docile
This quest to find myself and love me demands me whole
No tattered pieces
No torn parts
No shredded bits
I’m not doing that anymore
You were loved with all of me and therein lay my colossal mistake
Parts of me should have stayed sacred to me
Loving myself begs l do no such thing for you
Or any man who seeks the physical and neglects my spirit
Times’ awasting but in my eagerness to move on
I will do it right this time
I will burn the bridges
Bury the dead
Shut the doors, lock and throw away the keys
In my hurried state to leave, I will not simply forget. 
